Wait, What...leaving on a jet plane!

Ok I’m not leaving until the crack of dawn on Friday but I am definitely in excited and super guilty mode. I go back and forth with emotions but at the end of the day obviously I’m getting on that plane with some of my closest lady friends and I’m going to have a great time! With that in the back of my mind I’m leaving my fellas for the first night since we got them home from NICU. I won’t see them live for the first time since the day after they were born. And I won’t be the one to wake them up and nurse or feed them in almost a year. I am their night and Day and I am their mama!
I think a lot of guilt comes with the knowledge that this is going to be another step in the weaning process. Also that working mom guilt that is always there and now once again I am the one leaving them, this time for a solid 4 days. Mr. WaitWhat is a total homebody and seems to never leave without the rest of us and is fine with that but now he has essentially 84 hours of twin toddlers. I have tried to ask him what arrangements I can help with but of course he says he’s all good, but that’s a lot of time right?
Anyway back to me! Mama guilt is real and I have prepped and prepped and now it’s time to go. What can I do to be there? FaceTime? Pump will be packed so I have that constant connection and reminder? Do I wake them at 5am to nurse before I go? Oh my the anxiety! Eh a few bottles of wine in I hope the crying doesn’t start! I’m prepared to keep up while away! Let’s see how it goes! I’m too excited and scared of what has to happen and what will be! Ok ramble over! More later- Ms.WaitWhat