This seems to be how my life is going. I start things and then get busy and I never finish! So I actually started putting my thoughts down on my birthday but we are finishing a few weeks later. Turns out birthdays at this time in my life are just a day. A day that I am reminded that I am still a fairly new mom who had babies later in life. I had my babies at 37, so now at 39 I am tired. Tired is my new normal. Tired is a way of life. There are more things to worry about then just getting and being old. We had a nice day though. A shit show of a day, but a nice day.
My kids were almost on TV! Yup TV! After getting the call and heading down with 1 baby an hour before nap time and 1 baby an hour after nap should have started we got cut. So shit show began! They were a mess. I was a mess. The man was a mess and I had to accept that I was old and that was it for my day. On semi bright side a married man hit on me with my kid in the car while I was waiting to figure out how the TV show was going to come get me and my 50lb baby with carseat (about 25 a piece). He was adament and thought it was a great arrangement for both of us so that we could have a mutual agreement. I declined but it was still nice to get attention on my 39th.
What does 39 really mean? I am 1 year to 40. A big one. I have some big plans that I hope to actually follow through on and blog about. Anyone down for a 40 for 40? Yup I am below the weight I was after being pregnant but there is still a ways to go. I think 40lbs is reasonable in a year? How to get there? I have no idea. Any thoughts? Anyone in? Also just getting healthy is the goal. Truthfully my man had surgery and could also use a boost but I have to kind of sneak it in for him to follow along on my journey to health. We have a purpose...our twinnies. This will be my journey to 40. Its out there now lets do it!
I know I know we bitched and moaned about it still being winter in April but damn it’s hot! And with that I have to sit and ponder what it is to do with these twinnies? Do we brave the crowded splash pads or even scarier the pool? Now we have done our due diligence and exposed them to water, swim lessons, whatever but have we really prepared for an outing to a pool? This is definitely the question and something I need to mentally prepare for!
As we come into a new age milestone, 18 months, I have definitely had some set backs in believing I have done right by my boys. I am reminded often that they are preemies and they are on track but is that a ruse that I am going to miss the boat on what they need? How long is this going to be an excuse? What can I do more of? What do I need? There is definitely a brain block on this mama that I still do not necessarily believe that I did not ruin my fellas by having them so early. And the scary realization that I may not know anything for a very long time.
I digress. It’s hot out! What do you do to keep your kids cool and calm in the sweltering heat? What can I do with 18 month twins who are on the MOVE?? Help me followers bring it on!
Jenifer Roth is a full time super woman...in her mind! Well she is good at being ok at the all the roles she takes on. Enjoy the ride!